.

God help us.

2009-09-27T23:43:00.000-07:00

view outside our house. bull crap.

I'm good, I'm gone.

2009-06-21T18:47:00.000-07:00

"and if you say I'm not OK; we mus-t go...

if you say there ain't no way that i could know..

if you say i aim too high from down below..

well, say you're not 'cause when i'm gone

you'll be callin' but i won't be at the phone..."

- Lykke Li ♥

a F.A.T. life...

2009-04-22T20:27:00.000-07:00

September:

*started working.

Wow what a training! You got to have a firm discipline to yourself if you want to pass and make it to the “floor” (as we call our workplace). You have to remember that you’re not a student anymore, and those petty excuses that you use to say to your professors back in college won’t work here. Fortunately I made it. Passed the training and now I’m officially 7 months on the floor, continuously working my ass off to be a better agent.

October:

*hiatus.

I must say I sacrificed a lot when I started working. First off, goodbye leisure time and then goodbye gimmicks, technically goodbye social life (well not really, let’s just say I’m still on the adjustment period then). See also: goodbye road trips and morning views. I’m now an official nocturnal being – at least I’m paid for being one unlike before. There was even a time when I already forgot how a mall looks like and how it’s like to party hard and get wasted. Yes friends, believe it or not I tried to stay away from vices, but.... let’s say I can’t help it… so there…geez.

At some point I felt so static, that it seems every day is a copy of a copy of a copy of yesterday. To think it’s been only one month since I fell on this hell hole and I’m giving up already. So I shook myself up for me to realize that I’ve only just begun.

November:

*level up.

2 months and I’ve already committed a lot of offenses haha. I was put onto action plan because of my lates and guess when it’s going to fall off?? *ehem* by February! Damn it. I can’t afford to be late again or else I’ll be terminated. Talk about my old disease.

December:

*the season to be jolly. (not really applicable to me)

By this time “you can already feel the spirit of holidays” as they say. But to us “yeah right, holidays!” hell it’s a “blackout period”, meaning you can’t go on absent no matter how terrible and sick you feel (unless you’re dying haha). And MALAS mo if at Christmas you have a work (which basically what happened to me). Malas.

Though I wasn’t able to spend Christmas with my family, I must say it’s quite an experience spending your holidays at the office with some good company anyway.

See also: I’m glad to say, atleast I got to attend some christmas parties – with my Cozy House Family and Psychoe friends :)

January:

*another year to screw.

Just like with Christmas, I wasn’t able to spend the New Year with my family too. Where am I?? At my freaking work. Taking calls, while the whole world is having a good time. As I remember, I was then talking to a caller (an old lady) who needs my help that moment for a one special phone number (a residential listing), after I was able to find and gave her the number, I was so touched when she told me “Happy New Year Operator and may you have a wonderful year! I’m so sorry you have to work today to help us.” And I was like, “No worries, it’s my pleasure to help you ma’am. Have a Blessed New Year too!” After that call, I logged out and pause for a while. God! I almost cried! I miss my family! Specially my parents who’s not here in P.I.

February:

* crossing my fingers.

Finally my C.A’s fell off. And finally I’m already regularized. Got transferred to a new TM, TL, and Team, let’s just hope I’ll do well this time.

March:

*wow. it’s been one year.

Can’t believe it, it’s already one year since I graduated from college. Time flies really fast.

Congratulations to my “bispren neth” and “cza cza gurl”!! happy graduation and good luck to your career guys! I wish you both the best :)

April:

*tumblingmoments.

So freaking fed up. Nuff’ said.

much respect.

2009-03-11T21:35:00.000-07:00

it’s true that life is such a kaleidoscope world …

but you proved everyone that despite all the hurdles, it can still be a happy battle …

thank you so much for the music …

you’re now a true freeman …

so long super proxy!

photo came from his site.

Tokyo!

2009-02-08T05:32:00.000-08:00

wickedly weird.

"get the story right. get the story right. get the story down.

be good."

You can also watch the Tokyo! trailer in high definition here.

Kermit Bale

2008-10-06T19:49:00.000-07:00

What do Christian Bale and Kermit the Frog have in common? haha you'll love this!

found these photos in here CLICK - CLICK

a.)

b.)

nice smile !

c.)

haha weee tambling !

d.)

e.)

why so serious ??

f.)

g.)

whatta HUNK !

h.)

hahaha

i.)

sigh.

2008-09-22T03:59:00.000-07:00

"I never realize how much I like being home unless I've been somewhere really different for a while ..." - Juno (movie)

movies: my must watch list

2008-08-20T22:46:00.000-07:00

some movies that I’m looking forward to watch soon.

If this movie doesn't touch you, then go ahead and touch yourself…

They said that “it is pretty much the most sexually fueled thing you'll see all year.” – FS.net

Choke is both written and directed by first-time filmmaker and actor Clark Gregg. The film is an adaption of Fight Club writer Chuck Palahniuk's novel of the same name.

Follow our directions, and you live through this. Disobey, and you die.

It has a unique action, a mysterious storyline, and Shia LaBeouf and Michelle Monaghan working together
= Kickass!

Eagle Eye is directed by D.J. Caruso, of The Salton Sea and last year's Disturbia. The story for the film was actually imagined by Steven Spielber g but the script was penned by Eli Attie ("The West Wing", "House") and John Glenn (upcoming Clash of the Titans remake).

I had love Guy Ritchie's films since my friend Ahmed introduced his movies to me. So I bet this one is going to be pretty awesome too.

RocknRolla is both written and directed by British filmmaker Guy Ritchie, of Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels, Snatch, and Revolver previously.

Honestly it's the trailer that caught my attention. I know nothing 'bout Max Payne except that it’s an adaptation of the video game with the same title. And I think Mark Wahlberg will show some edge of action here.

Max Payne is directed by Irish filmmaker John Moore, of Behind Enemy Lines, Flight of the Phoenix, and The Omen previously, with a screenplay written by first-time writer Beau Thorne. The film is based on the popular Max Payne series of third-person-shooter video games that first arrived in 2001.

What is it with you and women? ...

I’d say another masterpiece from one of my favorite director – Frank Miller (Sin City, 300). If you could still remember i have posted the teaser trailer of this movie before. *see my videos*

The Spirit is both written and directed by legendary comic book author Frank Miller, who previously worked with Robert Rodriguez to direct segments of Sin City. The film is based Will Eisner's newspaper comic strip of the same name that originally debuted in 1940.

With you it's always complicated.

And yes, another badass movie from my beloved Jason Statham. I bet this movie is going to be as exciting as the Transporter 1 and 2. Can't wait for november.

Transporter 3 is directed by French filmmaker Olivier Megaton, of Exit, The Red Siren, and Angie previously, with a script penned by both and Robert Mark Kamen and Luc Besson, the same two who also wrote the first and second Transporter.

P.S. I recommend you watch the trailers of these movies so you'll know what I mean.

take a read . . .

2008-08-01T13:31:00.000-07:00

When I got up this morning (or this lunch rather) one of my favorite movie Fight Club (thanks to my friends who introduced this movie to me) crossed my thoughts. Then I started browsing the i-net until I land on this webpage. I found these lines from fight club (both from the movie and the book – where the movie was adopted).

I miss my Fight Club dvd (cza! hear me! haha). Anyway enjoy reading. I love these lines/quotations and even if my day is just starting – it made my day already.

Quotations from Fight Club
by Chuck Palahniuk, 1996

This was freedom. Losing all hope was freedom. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 2

This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 3

If I could wake up in a different place, at a different time, could I wake up as a different person? ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 3

You buy furniture. You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life. Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you're satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you've got your sofa issue handled. Then the right set of dishes. Then the perfect bed. The drapes. The rug. Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 5

"If you don't know what you want," the doorman said, "you end up with a lot you don't." ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 5

I just don't want to die without a few scars. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 6

After a night in fight club, everything in the real world gets the volume turned down. Nothing can piss you off. Your word is law, and if other people break that law or question you, even that doesn't piss you off. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 6

Maybe self-improvement isn't the answer.... Maybe self-destruction is the answer. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 6

At the time, my life just seemed too complete, and maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 6

Nothing was solved when the fight was over, but nothing mattered. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 6

"It's only after you've lost everything," Tyler says, "that you're free to do anything." ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 8

By this time next week, each guy on the Assault Committee has to pick a fight where he won't come out a hero. And not in fight club. This is harder than it sounds. A man on the street will do anything not to fight. The idea is to take some Joe on the street who's never been in a fight and recruit him. Let him experience winning for the first time in his life. Get him to explode. Give him permission to beat the crap out of you. You can take it. If you win, you screwed up. "What we have to do, people," Tyler told the committee, "is remind these guys what kind of power they still have." ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 16

For thousands of years, human beings had screwed up and trashed and crapped on this planet, and now history expected me to clean up after everyone. I have to wash out and flatten my soup cans. And account for every drop of used motor oil. And I have to foot the bill for nuclear waste and buried gasoline tanks and landfilled toxic sludge dumped a generation before I was born. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 16

I wanted to burn the Louvre. I'd do the Elgin Marbles with a sledgehammer and wipe my ass with the Mona Lisa. This is my world, now. This is my world, my world, and those ancient people are dead. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 16

"Recycling and speed limits are bullshit," Tyler said. "They're like someone who quits smoking on his deathbed." ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 16

You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 17

...you're not how much money you've got in the bank. You're not your job. You're not your family, and you're not who you tell yourself.... You're not your name.... You're not your problems.... You're not your age.... You are not your hopes. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 18

All a gun does is focus an explosion in one direction. You have a class of young strong men and women, and they want to give their lives to something. Advertising has these people chasing cars and clothes they don't need. Generations have been working in jobs they hate, just so they can buy what they don't really need. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 19

We don't have a great war in our generation, or a great depression, but we do, we have a great war of the spirit. We have a great revolution against the culture. The great depression is our lives. We have a spiritual depression. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 19

I am the all-singing, all-dancing crap of this world.... I am the toxic waste by-product of God's creation. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 23

...when deep-space exploitation ramps up, it will probably be the megatonic corporations that discover all the new planets and map them. The IBM Stellar Sphere. The Philip Morris Galaxy. Planet Denny's. Every planet will take on the corporate identity of whoever rapes it first. Budweiser World. ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 23

Quotations from the movie Fight Club, 1999
screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher

When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep, and you're never really awake. ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

The things you own end up owning you. It's only after you lose everything that you're free to do anything. ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

I say never be complete. I say stop being perfect. I say let's evolve. Let the chips fall where they may. ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

How much can you know about yourself if you've never been in a fight? ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

We're the middle children of history.... no purpose or place. We have no Great War, no Great Depression. Our great war is a spiritual war. Our great depression is our lives. ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world. ~Fight Club movie, screenplay by Jim Uhls, directed by David Fincher, novel by Chuck Palahniuk

source >>>

Batman : The Dark Knight

2008-07-28T23:47:00.000-07:00

WOW. I’d say the best batman movie ever. (ok. so far. ‘coz there might be another one in the future) but still, it was really astounding. It’s modern, virtually-arresting, jaw-dropping, superb cast and story line, not to forget there are a lot of heart-racing scenes that made the movie more thrilling.

why so serious?

And another WOW for Mr. Heath Ledger's performance, it was really remarkable. Joker gave me goosebumps! I was so amused and frightened at the same time while watching him piss off everyone’s sorry asses in the gotham city. And I personally think he's out-jokered Jack Nicholson's long-held title by far, since Heath has taken Joker’s character to another level with more depths of emotion and complexity. Geez hands down to you Mr. Ledger, it’s just kinda sad to think that you can’t play Joker again for the next Batman movie.

the dark knight ...

Well also a big applause to director Christopher Nolan for doing a great job on this movie (but I still love you Mr. Tim Burton hehe). And in addition this was the first time that I admired Batman’s character, (thanks to Christian Bale ) because before, I love batman’s villains more than him haha. Well Mr. Bale also deserves some round of applause in his performance in this movie.

Even though Heath Ledger passed away, I read some scoop from the internet in which we can find out some of what Ledger went through in portraying the dark clown thanks to FHM (I just don’t know which FHM mag that is). It was said that the magazine had an interview with Ledger last year and here's some of what he had to say of the role he considered the "most fun [he's] had."

"I just locked myself away and formed a little diary and experimented with voices… I ended up making him within the realm of a psychopath kind of like zero empathy or very little to no conscience towards his acts which is fun because there's no real limits on their boundaries to what he would say or how he would say something or what he would do… it's always a very personal process in terms of how you land in your characters shoes, so to speak, it's a combination of reading all the comic books I could and the script, and then just really closing my eyes and meditating on it. Chris and I very much see eye to eye on how the character should be played, and that was evident from the first kind of meeting we had on the project. We both had identical images in our minds and so I went away, found it, came back." –Heath Ledger

He really makes it sound so easy but of course for everyone who had seen the movie it was not easy at all. Personally I think this is Ledger’s best performance throughout his career. Too bad one of the best villain ever is gone.

here's the full interview >>>

let's put a smile on that face ...

kiss You or keep You

2008-07-28T23:36:00.000-07:00

xoxo chuppa pee's haha =)

2008-06-07T19:41:00.000-07:00

first, the "xoxo" thing was libby's influence haha ...

second, my mobile is functioning again and i'm glad 'bout it ..

and finally, after a loooong time ...

chuppa pee's reunion !

these four gurls reminds me of my days at dorm 110 …

crazy nights + water time + movie marathons + essential talks + high times! + curfews +bathroom sessions + food trips + music addicts ...

my sorority sisters . . .

my first family at dorm ! hope too see you soon my chuppa pee’s !

background music *Take a Picture by Filter*

more photos here >>>

of all the things that could happen !!!

2008-06-03T23:24:00.000-07:00

damn it!!! uggghhhh! what could possibly worse than my situation??!! xet xet xet! ugghh! shit! my cell-phone got busted!!!!! actually it’s giving me headache this past few days na talaga– bigla nalang mag failed yung messages pero hindi dapat kasi may load and signal naman ako .... then now yung lock code naman ung nagloko!! i don’t know what happened and worse is I can’t open my phone!! kasi nga because of the freaking lock code!!! I tried every possible password but still nothing happens… uggggh!!! talaga naman!!! ngayon pa nangyari kung kelan broke and bum ako!! ung phone ko na nga lang ang social life ko at the moment sira pa!!! f**k talaga!! huhuhu I’m sooooooo doomed … i-meet ko pa naman friends ko on friday ... wala naman extra phone sa bahay plus pag sinabi ko to kay momma papagalitan lang ako … I don’t want to change my number din, kasi it’s been my mobile number ever since and naalala ko na all my contacts naka save nga pala sa phone memory!!!! huhuhu taena talga!!!! ang super stupid ko!!!!!

kaya friends if ever mag txt kau and I reply with a “who’s this?” wag na kau magtaka … just PM me your numbers sa multiply or friendster ko, para we can still stay in touch …

sigh… *sniff*

travel guide . . .

2008-05-31T19:04:00.000-07:00

I've been dreaming to travel the whole Philippines since I was a kid but unfortunately I've just been to some places of it so far ...

So here’s a cool site or rather a travel guide for everyone …

check it out and try it .. this was grabbed from Sir Roy Cruz (thanks sir!) ...

and like what sir roy said - be always sure that your cameras are with you

tara byahe tayo! hehehe =)

My Lakbayan grade is D!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

the meltdown . . .

2008-05-25T02:44:00.000-07:00

Geez. The weather is so unstable. Whenever I get up around 4am or 5 in the dawn to go the bathroom, I can feel my butt is freezing, and then the next thing I know when I really got up from bed by 10am its so effing hot. Then in the afternoon it’ll rain so hard as if the clouds been holding that water for so long. ... global warming indeed … but it has nothing to do actually with my post, I just want to mourn ‘bout how terrible the world now is …. anyway I remembered that it’s been a long time since I posted my last blog, so here.

Well to sum it up, finally I made it (after all the stressful moments last sem, specially with the thesis and zoology lol). I graduated from college last March. I’m done with my studies. College life is over. I really don’t know how to feel about it, because if I could choose between studying (including the subjects I hate so much, not to mention the other professors I don’t like =p) and working (which means really working my lazy ass off) ? hell I’d rather choose to study forever… but of course that’ll be unfair for my parents.

some proofs

But more or less I feel fulfilled, somehow. I’d say this is one of my great achievements. I mean, graduating from college was not that easy after all. I’ve encountered a lot of obstacles – and I really mean - a lot. Of course there’s the pressures, problems, deadlines, projects, exams, freaking professors (only some =p). However my college life was really one of the high lights of my life. I’ve gained a lot of good friends, i have the best friends in the world and a special mention to my second home Cozy House Dormitory – one of the best place in the world! … And most of all, I know that I’m a better person now than I was before…..

>>>

At the moment, I’m living the BUM’s life haha =p … I know almost everyone around me can’t wait, for me to force my lazy ass to work!! … but they can’t blame me, I guess I deserve some break. ….. but it doesn’t mean I’m not thinking to work my ass off as soon as possible. I mean, now that I’m done with my studies my parents are not oblige anymore to give me an allowance (hiya ko nalang no! =p) …… well my original plan was to find a job by mid of April, but when April came .. I kinda feel lazy searching for work... and I still feel lazy up to now....... hehehe --- ok, here, I won’t promise but I’ll guarantee that by June, I’m really going to search for a work … gotta pull myself back together…. It won’t be easy I know (cause as they say – the REAL WORLD is going to eat you alive) … but hey! Nothings really easy ……

graduation day . . .

2008-03-26T02:53:00.000-07:00

One of the most waited moment in a student’s life …

The moment to say adios to their beloved second home; And say hello to the actual life …

College has been a crazy ride but absolutely wonderful …

A special thanks to everyone who’s been part of my college life. I wouldn’t be who I am today if it wasn’t for all of you …

To my family – most especially to my parents … thank you for sending me to an amazing university … thank you for all the support and prayers … I hope I can return everything to you in God’s time … my family has always been my inspiration at everything I do and will always be …

To my friends – “you all” are my most wonderful memory of college … you’ve been my second family while I’m away from my home … and I can say that I know who my real friends are – those are the people who has always been there for me, constantly hanging … you guys have been my brothers and sisters through sunny days to stormy nights … my BSN 10 Familia, my beloved CHUPPA PEE’S, the SHIFTEES, COZY House Family, my PSYCHOE GURLS and other psychoe “true friends” (you all know who you are hehe) … thanks for all the memories and I know we’ll continue to make more of ‘em … a big “CHEERS!” to you all and I LOVE YOU ALL TO DEATH!

To my KADAS – my remaining true friends from high school (I always use the word “true” for I know who the frauds are hehe) … the boys – bez jemn, naner, em, koki, rexxi boy, keenot and to my NAM – ica … you guys have always been my back up’s to everything, we always save each others asses whenever there’s a crisis and tickling each others armpit whenever were high, sober, wasted and happy … salamat! Let’s keep everything that way … =)

To my professors – thank you for feeding our minds and souls, and for sharing your knowledge’s to us … for teaching us to work hard and give our best at everything we do, so we can achieve our goals, know are selves more, and surpass the battles life has brought us … I can’t thank you enough for all your hardships.

My classmates – from the BSN 10 to PSY 44 and to those who have been my classmates at my irregular days … thank you and I’m glad I met you all =)

Whew! That’s a long list … again THANK YOU!

graduation day . . .

more photos here >>>

apee hearts day everyone!

2008-02-14T03:59:00.000-08:00

" All we need is love . . . "

year end survey galing kay danibab . . .

2007-12-31T03:56:00.000-08:00

mula kay danibab . . .

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?

~ humawak ng music scoring ng isang stage play (wala champion eh) ^^

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
~ hindi kasi uso sakin yun eh . . . pag feel ko gawin, go lang . . .

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
~ oo dalawang kaibigan . . . ^^

4. Did anyone close to you die?
~ tito ko . . .

5. What countries did you visit?
~ singapore at malaysia . . . (ampness)

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
~ whew! dame . . .more Confidence, Sipag, Tiyaga, Peace of mind, Healed heart, work, and to be more focus on my priorities.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
~ err hindi cia date . . umm yung nanalo kami sa play, summer, first semester, mga memories sa dorm at konti nitong second semester.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
~ mejo napalapit ako sa kanya at kaya ko pa pala tumayo ulit (yunnayon)

9. What was your biggest failure?
~ (actually who) xa at c xxx . .

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
~ infected fingers lang naman (xet badtrep)

11. What was the best thing you bought?
~ ipod (dopie ang pangalan nia) at mga bagong palaka ^^

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
~ ako nalang (walang aangal)

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
~ ako rin.

14. Where did most of your money go?
~ pangangailangan at luho.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
~ wala kong matandaang na excite ako tong taon nato =(

16. What song/s will always remind you of 2007?
~ look after you by the fray, let’s get fucked up and die by motion city soundtrack

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? --> happier and sadder

ii. thinner or fatter? --> fatter

iii. richer or poorer? --> sakto lang

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
~ focused more on my studies and health.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
~ impairments and laziness.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
~ I spent it with my family.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
~ unfortunately yes I did.

23. How many one-night stands?
~ wala

24. What was your favorite TV program?
~ heroes . . .

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
~ yes . . .

26. What was the best book you read?
~ for one more day by mitch albom.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
~ ang bandang motion city soundtrack

28. What did you want and get?
~ konting katahimikan at privacy sa loob ni dzoi (watsupwitdat)

29. What did you want and not get?
~ matinong lablayp. (sagot ni danidab at sagot ko rin)

30. Favorite film/s of this year?
~ 300, transformers, bridge to terabithia at hitman.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
~ nagpakain tapos painom . . . 19 y/o

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
~ xa sana . . . (Oksowatsdapoint?)

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
~ comfortable at laid back pa rin idagdag mo ang uniform na pang clinical ^^

34. What kept you sane?
~ familia, mga kaibigan, xa at c xxx . . . pag-aaral (ampness)

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
~ johnny depp (wiwit)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
~ ung sa manila penn at biglang may curfew daw (pero hindi ko naman naramdaman)

37. Who did you miss?
~ mga magulang at malalayong kaibigan.

38. Who was the best new person/people you met?
~ cozy house family, mga bagong psychotic na kaibigan.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
~ hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon kelangan unahin ang iba at everyone lies talaga.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
~ "this must be it, welcome to the new year." (by M.C.S)

happy holidays! ^^

2007-12-25T03:51:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Wishing you all a happy christmas! Enjoy the Noche Buena guys ^^

And don't forget to go to church tomorrow . . .

It's "HIS" day, not ours hehe

keepsafe!

see you all soon!

cozy's christmas party . . .

2007-12-21T04:26:00.000-08:00

Cozy House Family's Christmas party . . .

It's our first Christmas party actually, and were looking forward for more in the
coming years! hehehe :D

before the actual party, there have been a lot of probs .. like 'bout bispren neth - we all thought she wouldn't come cause she was really sick .. but everyone was so surprised when she made it haha.

well the real issue there is, neth's the head of "what to do's" in the party that's why everyone went nuts when neth got sick haha. so we are all forced to move our lazy asses to make this party happen hehe
.. well sayang naman talaga if hindi namin itutuloy, cause matagal narin naman ito napag handaan and napag ipunan. =)

more photos here >>>

hapee christmas everyone!

cozy house family . . .

motion city soundtrack

2007-11-05T20:49:00.000-08:00

motion city soundtrack

i love their songs !

they got good lyrics and rhythm . . . i would like to thank my friend "thinapay" for introducing this band to me months ago . . .

Motion City Soundtrack is an American pop punk band from Minneapolis, Minnesota. They have released three albums, all are on Epitaph Records. Their third full-length album entitled Even If It Kills Me, was released September 18, 2007. Currently, the band is enjoying international recognition, with strong fan-bases in countries such as Britain, Canada, Japan, and Australia. - wikipedia

Current Members:

Joshua Cain – Guitars, Backing Vocals
Jesse Johnson – Synthesizer
Justin Pierre – Vocals, Guitars
Matthew Taylor – Bass Guitar, Backing Vocals, Piano
Tony Thaxton – Drums, Percussion, Backing Vocals

official website >>>

walkathon hustler! ^^

2007-11-04T03:40:00.000-08:00

Walkathon hustler! – Thanks to kristhel I got a new title for myself. ^^

Why walkathon? Well since the sem-break started, I didn’t stay much in the house. Often times I’m at cavite – if not in the dorm I’m at GMA in my tita"s house. I just go home once a week. Most of the time I’m at the road travelling from one place to another. Then Thel and I had this joke that I’m just like joining a walk-marathon, and by always roaming around (like being in a walk-marathon) that made me to be the "walkathon hustler", so there. ^^

I thought that this would be my last sem-break so why not go seize the moment.

Our first getaway is at Pansol, Laguna in where we had our "night swimming part II ". It was so nice, we get to unwind from the stressful stuffs this last sem gave us.

Our second get away is at Chard’s place (Canyon Woods Tagaytay). Chard’s place is totally awesome! It’s like paradise. We do nothing but eat, sleep, watch DVD’s (I love their movie room), play some sports and have tons of fun. We all had a blast, we really enjoyed our stay there and we can’t wait to go back. ^^

morning view from chard's house.

The next night, we (cozy house people) decided to have a food trip at Sanctuario, a resto and coffee shop at Tagaytay. We love their bulalo and the place is so beautiful that you want to go back again and again. It’s like the third time we went there.

After having days of "grand vacation", it’s also time for me to finish some school stuffs like my psychological report for my OJT. And after I finished it and get to pass it to my CI I was so relieved that I celebrate and treat myself that same day. ^^

About the following days or should I say weeks, we’re just bum’s in the dorm. We’re living the life of the modern pigs ^^. We do nothing but eat, sleep, watch DVD’s, go on line, go to malls, watch movies etsetera etsetera. It was so good and if I could only freeze that moment, which is doing those, I will, for that’s all I want to do in my life. "mag buhay baboy!".

But of course it can’t always be that way. And I’ve been thinking about that issue every damn day of my life and it kinda cross my thoughts again these past few weeks. I always wonder what will happen after I graduated from college. Honestly I don’t want to graduate yet, I know I’m still not ready to work. In short I don’t want to step outside my comfort zone yet. (sigh) kinda reminds me of what Ms. O (one of our professors) once told us, that it breaks their (professors) hearts whenever students say that they don’t want to live the school yet for they think they didn’t learn anything. I’m not saying I didn’t learn anything for I really learned a lot especially when I shifted. It’s just that I can already imagine what will happen to me when I’m already working. It’s like "the future freaks me out!" (a song by Motion City Soundtrack). But anyway I know I have to grow and take even bigger risks (thanks CHIZZY).

And so it is, second semester is about to begin and I hate it. But there’s nothing I can do but to accept everything that will come along the way with arms, heart and mind wide open.

So good luck to me and to everyone I know who will graduate this coming march. ^^

some photos this sem-break :

~ at chard's place . . .

~ at sanctuario . . .

~ night swimming part II

singapore - malaysia tour . . .

2007-09-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

the main reason for going to Singapore and Malaysia was - our professors said that it was an
educational tour and that upon confirming to the tour, the remaining 100 hours of our OJT will be void, and other thing is, it could be consider as part of our Major subject - Organizational Development. so more or less we all thought that it was a good offer. well i didn't actually thought that my parents will say yes in this, but i was surprised when they said YES haha. of course it was a YIPEE! for me hehe .. it was my first time to went out of the country plus i'm with my friends so it was loads of fun ...

before the tour there have been a lot of issues ... 'bout the students that will come, not coming and those who backed out ... the passports and other papers .. etsera .. but it was all solved .. in a way ..

and so we finally went to Singapore ...

on our way to the airport ... i was a bit excited and anxious at the same time. perhaps because my lola was still at the hospital when i was leaving, though they told me that she'll be release their anytime soon .. but still you know, i worry a lot 'bout her whenever she's brought at the hospital .... and then it kinda cross my mind how my parents felt when they were leaving the phil. ... i don't know .. there's really 'bout terminals and airports that makes me sad ... you know that feeling when you can't wait to the place you'll be at the same time you hate to say goodbye to the place your leaving. i wanna throw up when i felt that feeling.

i wanna go home . . .

anyway ...

i hate the plane when it was taking off -- actually it was the 'ear pressure something' that i hate.
good thing i brought tons of bubblegums hehehe ... but the whole flight was cool actually

inside my view finder . . .

we stayed there for 3 days ... i must say Singapore was really a clean place! wow! there's even a fine when you throw some waste, cigarette butt or even candy wrapper at the street .. but the weather was not as i was expecting it. i'm kind of disappointed, it's a bit hot, felt like i'm still at manila hehe .... we ate at different restaurants .. man! i was so happy with the foods! (though yshra's not hehe) seafood galore! hehehe one of my fave !

3 days of gluttony

the whole tour was fun .... until by the second day, we all realize that it's not actually an educational tour .. rather we just went there to go goofing around while touring the whole place, whole day and going to the shopping areas at night .... woah! what a scam!!! damn. you won't imagine the look on our faces that moment ... were so disappointed to our department ... sigh ...

well there's nothing we can do 'bout it ... instead we just forced ourselves to enjoy ... it's like, bonding with my friends at Singapore and Malaysia and shopping there, has been our consolation prize .... so all in all the whole trip was full of fun (thanks to my friends and the places itself) and very disappointing (thanks to our department ...)

Singapore - Malaysia tour

all the photos are here >>>

~ from kuya john ...

~ from juneseven ...

~ from my cam ...

adios! my sweetest downfall . . .

2007-09-02T03:20:00.000-07:00

well, as expected . . .

we can never really be together . . .

you are so out of my reach . . .

but I'll still do what i said to myself i will . . .

to look after you . . .

my xa . . .

bear with me . . .

2007-08-12T03:12:00.000-07:00

basically this post is for someone

i never thought i would like so much . . .

xa >>>

this is for you . . .

= <

outlet . . .

2007-07-21T02:55:00.000-07:00

check it out . . .

it's a re-post actually >>>

^^

THANK YOU! ^^

2007-07-08T23:45:00.000-07:00

best of thanks to everyone who remembered my birthday!

here >>>

you all made my birthday this year

exceptional!

^^

birthday wish list (hoping!)

2007-07-01T03:02:00.000-07:00

some of my birthday wish list . . .

since my birthday is fast approaching . . .

here >>>

hope some of it come through!

hehehe

^^

a piece of me & emotional calamities . . . i'm hanging on . . . ^^

2007-06-03T01:30:00.000-07:00

P.S. This blog is personal. It is not my intention to target anyone in specific. And as what Coco said: Reader Discretion is advised. Peace everyone. ^^

Well I guess this will be my first time to talk about stuffs that is not figuratively or in the form of poem. I always thought that telling something about myself is a like a suicide. Because I’m about to tell others a piece of me in which I don’t know if they will understand or not. But I don’t care if they won’t. As they say, "you can’t please everybody." ^^ Also I didn’t post this just to get some attention. I don’t need anyone’s pity. I’m also tired of explaining myself to people who kept on asking, "musta ka na?", so the next time someone will ask me that cliché, I’ll just give the address of my multiply account for him/her to find out. Peace =)

One night I came to contemplate the neighborhood. The cold summer breeze swing me back to the days, days when my psyche were still blameless, clean-handed, simple, harmless… come to think of it, a lot of things changed… I, changed a lot along with all what happened… I had transformed myself into something I didn’t expect to be or should I say I’ve been avoiding becoming. Unfortunately hostility is now running on my blood. Unconsciously the beast within me grew into a sturdy being. For some sanity I start to lose trust to people, sometimes even to the close ones. Perhaps, because of random stuffs that I’ve gone through this past years. So moreover it’s been a crazy ride.

It’s been almost two years now since I shifted course. It’s been a year now since my MOMMA left to work her ass off abroad. Also it’s been a year now since I transferred from my old dorm inside the campus to our "happy tree house" now (our second tree house actually ^^). After shifting was actually the start of my adventure in this vast land a.k.a. LIFE. The biggest challenge was to face everything now solely. Because I shifted, I have to deal with a different or new group again, coz I won’t be with my old block mates anymore plus I will be an irregular student. Then because my momma left, we, together with my brother and sister are on our own now, meaning we need to be responsible with ourselves now, like in our studies, how are we going to handle our relationship with other people, et setera et setera. So definitely everything is in a new settings. I’ve undergone a lot of good-byes with people that are so close in my heart, and it was so hard. I’m the kind of person who attaches easily to people and to things but really having a hard time to detach thy self to them. I also came to the point where I really want to go out of my old dorm. Perhaps boredom stroked me. I thought that once I get out of this box, probably I would have a new life. So I did it. Summer ’06 when I started to dorm outside the campus. Everything went well, but little did I know this is where my saturation point will begin. I think I don’t need to expand the story that much coz the rest is way too personal. Sorry. ^^

To sum up the story I’ve encountered a lot of betrayals, foul misjudgments, people (most) underestimated me. I’ve been through a lot -- grief, pain, loneliness, and suffering (believe it or not). There was also this time that I really need the help of this person, but sadly she can’t give me any help. I’m the type of person who’s willing to give a hand to people who needs my help, but what’s frustrating was when the time comes that I’m the one in need, suddenly no ones there (doesn’t really apply to every situation, but this happens most of the time). Since that incident unconsciously I limit myself in helping others. I mean I’m not being selfish or what, let say I’m just being careful with my self now. I don’t want to be used again that’s all. But despite all the sad, frustrating and horrible things that happened to me, still I have happy moments. Moments I spent with my true friends and family (before, I thought that family is an accident by birth, coz if you’ll just know my story bout my family, tsk tsk, hehe, but as time goes by, I’d say one way or another with your family, your home).

Once a friend told me, So which way is home. i don't like to be here but i'm here so i have to like it because i'm here anyway. Gets? (Thanks chiz for this line, and she’s right, doesn’t mean that just because you don’t like where you are at the moment you can’t be happy, everyone have different view bout happiness anyway). I remember what Jessica Zafra said: "though I don’t always look like, I’m happy."

Lastly, (yes we’re now in the end coz it’s pass one in the morning and my astigmatism is striking), even though most of the time I abuse myself, and no matter how bad or good I’ve been that day. God knows whom and what I pray to him every night. If there’s one thing that I will always do and remember that is to always love, understand and trust myself, coz no matter what, at the end of the day, it’s always myself that I’m with, and not anybody else. And I’m proud to announce that though I'm still stuck in my "saturation point", I’m trying to rebuild myself from all the emotional calamities that I’ve gone through. ^^

secret window

2007-05-26T23:05:00.000-07:00

I know I’m so late for watching this movie, but hey, who cares I loooove it! Haha!
I may say that this is one of the movies that have a great twist. And it really amaze me whenever there’s a twist of stories especially when it's so freaking awesome! here's my fave line:

"someday every bit of her will be gone

and her death will remain a mystery,
even to me . . . – Morton Rainey (Johnny Depp)

>> oh and did I mention, Johnny Depp is so gorgeous in this movie. J. Depp MARRY ME! haha!

i hate hate hate . . .

2007-05-26T22:53:00.000-07:00

~ I hate waking up early in the morning.
(I love to sleep, though I am an insomniac.)

~ I hate it when everything around me is obscene.
(Except when I’m running out of time to do the chores.)

~ I hate the freaking VANS at Dasma.
(They’re the reason why I’m always late for work.)

~ I hate getting stranded in traffic.
(Just hate the traffic. I never learned to deal with it.)

~ I hate DUMBO! (I can already see a question mark above your head.)
(Just the thought of her pisses me off!)

~ I hate waiting for the clock to turn 5 PM.
(I want to go home to sleep T_T)

~ I kinda hate this OJT.
(I didn’t get the chance to enjoy my summer 07 coz of it.)

grrr . . .

in memory of bingo . . .

2007-05-05T23:30:00.000-07:00

Our old dog "Bingo" past away this afternoon . . . He’d been our dog since I was in 6th grade and guess what, now I’m already graduating from college haha! Anyway, it really makes me sad when I heard the news. Though I was expecting it a week before he died. Because they said he’s not feeling well these past few weeks and he’s not eating his foods. Actually at first I thought that his just being choosy with his food but then I realized that his already old and perhaps almost near his end. So somehow I have ready myself for this moment, but still it’s so hard. You can laugh if you want. I don’t care. Bingo is part of our family, even my parents (who’s not here in Phil.) got sad when they heard the news. We love him dearly and now that his gone I wonder if my dog Atlas can cope up with his lost. They we’re very good buddies. May you rest in peace my beloved Bingo.

bottleneck day !

2007-05-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

haha wala pa ko matinong tulog! >,<

beerday kasi ng kada q . .

c rexxi boi!

apee bday rexxi . . ^^

tapos ng inuman, kila naner n kami tumambay . .

tapos derecho na ko uwi ng dasma kinaumagahan . .

ang tindi ng init ng araw . . .

tanghali na rin ako nkarating dorm . .

nung nasa byahe tinxt ko si tine . .

sabi ko :

" hehe there's a cloud shaped dolphin . .
then you cross my mind . . take care . . ^^

ayun . . wala lang adik kasi un sa dolphin . .

around 2 pm punta na kami ni neth sa SM . .

ngayon kasi showing ng SPIDER MAN 3 . .

dami tao grabe . .

tapos mineet namin si paolo . . ^^

may date kasi si tinne haha!

maganda naman ung movie . . .

ayos naman . . .

daming talaga tao sa movie house . . .

hehe . .

inulit pa ulit namin . .

tapos kain . .

tapos uwi saglit ng dorm . .

tapos . .

tapos . .

tapos . .

eto na . .

naka on line . . . ^^

haha !

apir!

^^

HEY YOU! GGRRRR . . . >,<

2007-04-25T23:45:00.000-07:00

hoy DUMBO! gago ka!

dont judge me based on your ignorance!

humanda ka sakin!

ggrrrr talaga!

i'm so fucking pissed!

bitch! bitch!

>,<

second round . . . ^^

2007-04-22T23:30:00.000-07:00

whew!

okea . . second week na namin bukas ng OJT . .

sana mas maging sensible ako this week hehe . . .

at higit sa lahat sana hindi nako ma-late! wah!

i'm really having a hard time waking up early in the morning . . . ^^

can't help it . . hirap talaga ko matulog ng maaga pag gabi . .

at hirap gumising ng maaga . . T_T

pero hindi dapat lagi ganon . .

kaya ginagawa ko lahat para mabago yon . . hehe . .

anyway . . till here nalang muna . .

kelangan ko na matulog . . ^^

maaga pa bukas . .

goodnight luna!

goodnight universe!

^.^

zzzzzzzz . . . .

now this is suicide . . .

2007-04-21T03:15:00.000-07:00

B A N G !

waah . .

we survived the first week of our OJT . . .

haha pasaway lang ako kasi hindi ako pumasok kahapon [friday] !

anyway bawi nalang ako sa monday . . ^^

my 4 weeks pa naman . . T_T

yipee kitakits na kami maya sa school ng blockmates ko . .

na-miss ko talaga sila . . ^^

sayang ala si breadpan . .

kelangan pa nia mag apply eh . . [wawa naman]

but honestly . . .

nung nag start na kami mag OJT . . .

don ko na realize na comfort zone pala talaga ng isang

student ang school . . .

iba pala talaga ang laban sa labas . . .

you have to be a survivor . . .

kaya goodluck nalang sakin! hehe . . ^^

sigh . . .

2007-04-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

grabe kapagod . . .

pero kaya pa . .

ehe . . .

yawn !

2007-04-13T06:12:00.000-07:00

*hikab*unat* . . .

grabe inumaga nanaman tayo sa comp shop vin . . .

tara na . . .

tulog na tayo . . .

*yawn*

weee!

2007-04-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

hahaha =)

sa wakas!

mag start na kami sa monday!

weeee!

pagawaan pa ng tobacco!

destiny . .

^^
wish us luck!

do i really have to ?

2007-04-11T11:56:00.000-07:00

i wonder what will be the result of this fucking OJT . . .

for pete's sake! i wonder who started it all . .

whoever you are F**k you!

ggggrrrrrr . . .

a maundy thursday . . .

2007-04-05T19:18:00.000-07:00

we went to nasugbu batangas . .

weee i got a lot of new photo op's! . . sunset, beach . .

love it! . . . ang super negra ko!

ang sexxy ni tetay! wiwit! haha! . . ^^

more photos here >>

cheeseburger . . .

2007-04-05T08:24:00.000-07:00

i don't know why but i'm in an optimistic mood today,

my friend cheeseburger said :

"maybe your on a high . . and that's good . . . "

waaahhh . . .

( it better be good . . minsan lang to!)

ugh ugh ugh . . .

2007-04-04T10:30:00.000-07:00

can't think of anything yet . . . ^^